Yesterday my gf pointed out something to me which i realised was something that i needed to hear. She told me i was running away from my problem and it is true. I am running, i don't want to face it. But after hearing it from her 就有如一言惊醒梦中人... it really does. There are some problem i must face now, and i will slowly handle them one at a time. For the big one, i just have to take my time to see through it. i hope i have the courage to face it, the wisdom to solve and the determination to complete it. There are many obstacle that i must face, mainly from within me. Obstacle only i will know... i sincerely pray that i go through it. Even though my gf obstacle is much tougher than mine and she face it nonetheless, i am still afraid. Hope i have her courage, hope i have her strength. There are things that i know, which i was afraid to say it out and face it. God! Buddha! i need help!

it's been a really long time since i updated my post so here goes.

For the past few days brisbane has been experiencing heat wave causing the temperture to shot to 34 degree and breaking the temperture record for august. It meant nothing to me but only reminds me a little bit of home. Last night, the heat wave suddenly decide to pack up and leave, and so the temperture suddenly drops to only 5 degree. I kept my quilt because of the warm weather and i freeze my ass off last night with only a thin blanket.
been trying hard to keep up with my progress with school work, still slow but i think i'm making some progress. Hopefully i can finish all my assignment in time. Sai bia is coming next week and it feels fantastic that my secretary is finally going to come. hur hur hur. She can help me with my assignment! i'll be free for 4 days when she arrive, wonder where should i bring her to. I wanted to go to sydney but i don't think 4 days isn't enough. Maybe sunshine coast but the place is pretty boring. I'll decide what to do when she arrive. Recently also saw a video of Julius, he is so cute! He is like the cutest toddler in the world! Miss my family and Julius.
Had been waking 6 or 7 in the morning to use the internet lately and it really made me feel tired during the day. But i'm still hanging on.
Recently also had a problem of deciding what to cook for my daily meals. It's such a hassle to decide what to eat, to buy ingredient, and to cook. Especailly when you want to eat something and you don't have the ingredient, the ingredient is expensive and you are not sure how to cook it or whether you are going to cook it the way it should taste like. Miss my mum cooking. Hope when sai bia arrive she can cook something nice for me. Fingers cross...
in 2 more weeks that's going to be a overnight field trip to moreton island, sadly not for vacation but to count freaking birds. Excited and nervous at the same time because it's been a long time since i went camping, really really long time! Think i have to buy a sleeping bag or something.