Monday, December 14, 2009

felt a tremendous growth in self in recent days... after i became alone, i felt that i had more strenght to face the problem thrown at me... there is no one else to relay on..

though i miss those days, i miss having someone to coquetry on and, most of all, someone to call dear... i'm afraid you will be hurt, i'm afraid you will not be able to take care of herself, especially when you are so vulnerable now... i don't wish to do this to younow, but my heart felt pain and pressure when i sometimes can't control my emotion... i hate you sometimes but still you are so close to me that i can't do anything... your decision made me angry sometimes, well most of the time, to the point that i my heart felt so painful but i can't do anything about it but to help you... i almost wanted to cry sometimes... i know you are pressured and stress in making those wrong decision, i should had stop you... i don't to feel this way anymore...

I look more forward to the day i'm going to be totally independent and become a stronger person... i won't be dismay so easily by trivia matter, i will have a stronger heart...

If i have can split my heart, i will give the part where i still want to care for you to you... Thank you for being understanding....